I love you so much, baby.

Mom

Julius, you’re here!!!

Born August 13, 2009
8 lbs. 8 oz
21.5 inches

I love you…

Mom

Hello little Julius,

Any day now I expect you’ll be coming out into the world! The doctor said a couple days ago (Thursday, Aug. 6th) that I am 1cm dilated and your head has dropped considerably. That’s a great sign! I started having contractions pretty consistently on Friday night (Aug. 7) about 5 minutes apart but unfortunately they were really mild in strength so it was considered a “false labor.” Your daddy and I have been trying natural methods to induce labor cause I am sooo ready to meet you! We’ve made love and today I drank castor oil mixed with orange juice. Neither so far have induced labor, however I can tell that my contractions have gotten a bit stronger!

I’ve been listening to Hypnobabies recordings that get me in a “zen place” where I meditate on my connection with you to minimize the pain. My favorite part about listening to the recordings are when I imagine myself reaching into my belly to cradle you in my arms. When I do that, the pain from the contractions turns into manageable waves of pressure.

Sometimes I wonder if you can hear me playing piano in the mornings… and can you tell that I’ve gotten better? LOL. You motivate my creativity in ways that words fail to describe. I love you so much and can’t WAIT to bring you into a world of happiness, positivity, and culture. For months and months I’ve been researching gentle and loving ways to bring  a child up in the world using positive reinforcement and redirection. I can’t help but feel mentally ready for this awesome challenge! I would think that many parents out there would probably jump at the chance of raising their kids from scratch again if given the opportunity to make amends. This is such a great experience to be able to lay a smooth and strong foundation for you from day one so that you live life not only feeling good, but surrounding yourself with enriching environments that stimulate laughter, creativity, and positive learnings.

Above anything, I can’t wait to hold you in my arms. I’ve dreamed this moment for so many years. My eyes water just thinking about it. I just want to hold you. Walk with you. Talk with you. Be your life companion, parent, friend, leader, and button pusher

Your great aunt Eileen (my aunt) surprised us today with a cool scrapbook/photo album and a generous gift card to Target so we can document some memorable moments of your early years. How sweet! I’m going to send her a thank you note Also today your great aunt Kat (my aunt) gave us a generous donation so that we can afford some things you’ll need in the upcoming months. I haven’t really talked to her since I was like 8 years old, so this was truly an unexpected pleasant surprise. You’ve got fans, buddy! I’ll send her a thank you note too

You are so loved, Julius. Not only by your parents - but by our very large, extensive family. When you’re old enough to talk, hopefully I’ll have also shared with you different ways to show gratitude to those who have blessed you. You are seraphic in my eyes, a true angel.

Who knows, maybe I’ll go in labor tonight or tomorrow. Any day now.

Love
Mom